It's rantin' time!

[memnus]

I'm growing tired of this.

I'm tired of doing the same shit every day and every week. I'm tired of being left-brained. I'm tired of staring at papers for longer and longer as they start to mean less and less. I'm tired of starting things, getting distracted by crap I've already seen, and having to come back to them later... yes, this rant falls into that category. I'm tired of feeling like I'm hiding half myself from everyone I see. I'm tired of bouncing between things so fast that I can't focus on any of them. I'm tired of an utter inability to concentrate as well as I need to. I'm tired of being such an introvert that I can't even flirt properly. I'm tired of having to correct typos in every other sentence I write. I'm especially tired of the fact that, all things considered I've got very little I should complain about, but still want an easy way out. I'm tired of being too afraid of disappointing people to make any major changes. I'm tired of lying awake alone every night, no matter how exhausted I am, staring at the walls for an hour. I'm tired of having no chance to shoot in the sun.

It's spring and I'm restless. I want to go running, for gods' sakes, and you all know I'm NOT the running type.

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Comments

[dclayh.livejournal.com]

Hahaha, I randomly went running the other night, and I hate running. Must be grad school...

[iluvsheep.livejournal.com]

What is it with all this hating on running? It so easy. It doesn't require coordination or skill of any sort. It doesn't require any expensive gear. And it gets you high, runners' high.

[jibb.livejournal.com]

It is hard on the knees.

[quartzpebble.livejournal.com]

It's not going fast enough to cover decent amounts of ground in a reasonable time (like biking) and it's not going slow enough to make it fun to look at things (like walking). Add that to the knees thing and the out-of-shape learning curve... and yeah. Not my thing.

Picking heavy things up repeatedly, on the other hand, is unexpectedly fun.

[(Anonymous)]

I would not have expected that you would like weight lifting.

[iluvsheep.livejournal.com]

That was me.

[quartzpebble.livejournal.com]

I started off trying to get enough strength to consistently draw a bow almost twice as heavy the one I had been using, since archery's only twice a week. I'll probably keep it up even after I stop archery, though, since I like being strong (very generally useful). It's also quantifiable, takes more muscle memory than hand-eye coordination, and (since I'm not doing anything dangerously heavy) doesn't take anyone else being there. So yeah. Fun. Most concrete goal right now is to be able to do multiple pullups by graduation--I haven't been able to do those since early high school.

[qullex.livejournal.com]

I am not running type either. But since I started I found it can leave one wonderfully refreshed.

[ziqueenmab.livejournal.com]

Ah, grad school. :/ At least you're not the only one?

[zwilichkl.livejournal.com]

I sometimes want to go running. And I hate it! But sometimes you're just agitated.

[sithjawa.livejournal.com]

It's my firm belief that everyone has a right to complain, and to try to make things better.